Recently I did some self-analysis surrounding fear. How much of my behavior and how many of my resentments were really derived from basic fears? Turns out many of the things that “bothered” me (meaning interrupted my flow, disturbed my peace of mind, caused stress…) had to do with fear. The fear of going broke. The fear of being invisible. The fear of being judged. And a big one for me, considering how I grew up…the fear of anger.
In what I thought was just a coincidence, I was also doing Deepak Chopra’s excellent 21-Day Meditation Challenge on Abundance. (As a side note, he offers these challenges occasionally for free. I would highly recommend signing up for his newsletter so you can experience them also. )
Either one of these exercises in and of itself would have been excellent. But the combination of two are, I think, tremendously powerful. You see, every one of my fears can be boiled down to the fear of lacking something. Lacking money. Lacking recognition. Lacking understanding. And in the case of anger, lacking peace. Once I began to understand, through the abundance work, that I have everything I need in this moment there was no need for fear.
This only works if you can stay in the moment, and I plan to work on that, and write about it, in February. But for January, it’s all about making sure that one cup (ABUNDANCE) is full and the other (FEAR) is empty.
On that note, I found a great little abundance meditation on YouTube. (You can skip that annoying commercial in 5 seconds.) I do this for about 10 minutes in the morning. The reason I like it so much is that there is some guided meditation/affirmation, then some nice spaces in between that allow me to practice being completely empty. In other words, no thoughts at all. (I can’t do this for more than about 15 seconds now but I’m working on building that up. When a thought flows in, I let it float out again as though it were a balloon on the wind.) I sometimes just turn this on using my smartphone and listen while I’m in the tub, but the music really doesn’t do as much unless you have headphones.
Try this out and let me know what you think!